I recently went through a bit of a rough patch. I won't go into details here, but I am taking one step at a time forward.
One of the things that kept coming up, though, was that I needed to find some hobbies. I was feeling burnt out at work and unmotivated to do much else at home, and a friend told me "working out cannot be the ONLY thing you do for yourself".
But when I tried to think of a "hobby", my mind was blank.
I don't know if I've ever really had a hobby.
Reading is a hobby, but lately I am so distracted I can't get into any book I try to read (but I'll keep trying).
Music is a hobby, in that I love music more than I love most things. But I can't sing, or play an instrument. That doesn't stop me from singing, though. It's just not something I can necessarily do outside of singing in my car or my house.
Nothing else sparks my joy- I don't like to garden, I've never been interested in trying to sew. I don't collect anything (quite the opposite- too much STUFF stresses me out).
I loved to do the podcast I had but I have no time to actually do it- the interviewing, editing, scheduling more interviews, promos, etc. Besides, do we really need one more podcasts? I don't think so.
I LOOOOVE theatre and being part of shows...but again, the lack of time thing, and then there is the fact that I haven't actually been in any kind of production since I was 16. But maybe one day when Zack is older I can be an usher or work behind the scenes for a local company. Right now, that's just really not an option.
But then it came to me. Writing. I love to write. And I already have a way of doing it (this blog). So, I'm going to try to make sure I make time to write. Whether it's in a journal or on this blog.
For me, a Leo and people pleaser, one of the things I need to let go of is seeking validation from my writing. I need to stop checking how many views or comments a post got and remember I am not doing this for anyone else but me. This is MY hobby. Doesn't matter if 1 person reads it or 100 people do. Maybe I'll incorporate some of the theme from my blog title and my former podcast and interview people via blog, shining a light on topics we don't talk enough about. Or maybe I won't. I don't know. I just know that for me, writing is a release and a way for me to feel like I have accomplished something.
Thanks for reading.
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